Weekend Roundup...Dia de Las Madres Edition

The day could not have been more lovely...it was relaxing....happy...and filled with love.  Mateo continues to sleep like a dream....I AM SO HAPPY...he is sleeping LIKE A DREAM!!!!!  So The stay began great with me having the best sleep since...ummm...I literally don't even remember...AMAZING!!!  And then I was ordered to stay in bed while my lil family worked hard on some yummy breakfast..and sweet cards!  I love walking into the kitchen to find this...happy loving puffy morning faces that were ready to love and kiss me!

GRANDMA GIGI and Grandpa flew in to celebrate Mother's Day...they are such sweet people and they love all 4 of their grandkids so much it fills my heart to witness. Sadly they live up north so we aren't able to see them too often....but they sure made up for lost time with this visit...and Mateo and they were attached at the hip...he just LOVES his grandparents so much!

3 out of 4 babies with me....

2 out of 4...

Grandpa and Mateo hanging in the farm....

My Johnny.....

My Teo....

He was just smitten with them...I wish they lived closer...

Nothing more attractive than an AMAZING father!!!!!

Treats for Cruz in the belly.....

My buddy...

My Golden Boy...

My Doll...

I CANNOT wait to see all 3 boys together next year...and a lil ballerina twirling around them!

It was a perfect weekend filled with fun...we enjoyed the beautiful weather...and were left with some amazing memories!

Hope all the mamas out there had an amazing weekend..and that you have an amazing family that spoils and love you 365 days out of the year!

xoxo

Me

Feliz Dia de las Madres

We live for our babies...we sit through their practices...we celebrate their performances...we beam with pride...we drive countless miles...so watch them chase their dreams and passion.  I am honored to be a mother...I am humbled that I have been given this chance...and I am grateful that I have been doing it for 14 years.

Happy Mother's Day to all the mamas in the world....we are blessed!

xoxo

Me

This is me..mommy..wife...friend til the end.

This is me...mommy...wife...friend til the end.  I am honest (sometimes too honest)..I am loyal (when you earn that)...I am weird...I am crazy...I am loud and I am finally at my happiest place ever..where I know I was meant to be and now after the storm that my life became and survived
I stand..stronger...wiser...happier..beside me I have a man who LOVES ME..all of me! I have 4 babies that God has blessed me with. I now have a small handful of friends that stayed...because they loved me..and not what my life was.  I lost friends because with divorce comes sides..and with sides comes truth...and with truth comes reality.  The reality is that I devoted my twenties to my husband John..his friends became my friends...his family became my family...and sadly with divorce they left and never looked back..and I still miss them to this day.  I can't and wouldn't change ANYTHING..because then I wouldn't be exactly where I was right at this moment...I am the happiest I have ever been...I am loved like I NEVER have been loved or thought it was possible to be loved.  I am fufilled in the job that I have already done with my big kids and will continue to do so...and am so excited to raise the lil ones as well and watch them blossom.  I don't think ...I KNOW i was put on this earth to be a mommy to these 4 kids...and wife to this amazing man.  A very common thread in this blog is GRATITUDE...because honestly it is the emotion I feel everyday...I feel so grateful that I met Big John 16 years ago...I feel so grateful we had a whoopsy that we named Johnny 9 months later :)...I feel so grateful that we felt pressured to get married so we can then give our "whoopsy" a sister named Bella...I feel so grateful that through Big John and his family I learned what it was to have a family who loved me and supported me through being such a young mommy...I feel so grateful that years later I met the man that was born to love by my side...I feel so grateful that this man is so very weird and fun, so fun that I can look forward to being old and grey with him and laugh...I feel so grateful that this young man (I robbed the cradle with him) convinced me to become a mommy again...TWICE....I feel so grateful that I am now Mrs. James Bryan....I feel so grateful that he works so hard in order to keep me at home with our babies...and I feel so grateful that this is now my life.

Why the emotional outpourng you ask?  Well...I just celebrated my 1 year BLOGERVERSARY...and I spent the other morning looking at all the old posts and pictures and thought to myself...HOW far we have come...HOW much we have endured...and HOW much it was worth it.

Happy Blogerversary...thanks to all of you who visit my lil blog...especially Ms. Emilie Lairson, Heather O'hara and Christina Beck who often comment and ask about my blog when I see them...it brings me such happiness to know you guys enjoy it!

xoxo
Me

Happy Blogerversary...Buzzkill

Well good news and bad news...the good news is I now have a moustache...the bad news is Mommy can't blog right now because her laptop is under construction until the weekend...hence placing a BUZZKILL on her Blog's 1 year Anniversary...but DO NOT FRET..she has asked me to promise you all a great lil post to mark the date once the laptop is fixed! 

xoxo

Not Her..

it's Me

Really...Really? Nightmares Edition

For years I have been having my REALLY?@!* moments in life....I run them in my head all day long...it helps keep the cursing to a minmum...so why not start a lil REALLY seris...I would love to here about yours!

REALLY...crazy pregnant NIGHTMARES...so I finally get my youngest to sleep through the night....my bladder so far is coperating with the night..and now you decide to rear your ugly head times 100...REALLY!!!!  Thank you so very much for waking me up atleast 6 times last night...everytime either talking, yelling, or crying to myself!  GOOD TIMES!

xoxo 

Me

Zzzzzzzzz

Let us pray...Dear Lord...Thank You for knowing that if I had one more sleepless night I would probably have a heart attack and pull all my hair out!  Seriously though...I have witnessed a miracle...Mateo is now sleeping through the NIGHT!!!!

Well it only took 16 months...but I have acheived what I thought was impossible.  My sweet Mateo has been by far my toughest baby to sleep train...but I was going to acheive this before Mr. Cruz arrived come hell or high water!  In his defense...our poor lil Mateo had a lot against him...I was ordered to wean him from breastfeeding...I transistioned him from co-sleeping to his BIG BOY bed...and he is cutting all his molars...so the fact that we got it together and made it happen was AMAZING...AMZE-BALLS!!!

I had plenty of advice from friends and even our pediatrician..and all of them were totally on the FERBER METHOD...which...with all due respect...is just CRAZY TALK in my head.  And for all of you who have done this and it worked...my hats of to you...I just couldn't do it..I CANNOT go from nursing and co-sleeping..basically training my baby from day 1 to know that in my arms is where he sleeps..eats..and is safe...to the extreme state of CRYING IT OUT!!!! So I was in quite the dilema..because that option was DEF out...and then I said to myself...HELLO SELF...THIS IS NOT YOUR FIRST TIME SLEEP TRAINING A BABY!!!!!  Sure it's been almost a decade...but I had successfully done this twice before..MY WAY.  So I hunkered down..maintained consitency..(maybe lost my mind on my kids and husband from sleep deprivation)...but now...just after a week...a new big boy bed..some classical music...and a whole heap of patience...I DID IT...My handsome hubby and I finally have our delicioulsy comfortable CALIFORNIA KING SIZE BED back (for atleast 4 more months...hehehe). And I can now walk throughout the house in the still of the night by the light of the moon and check in on each and everyone of my sleeping babies..in their own comfy happy beds!!!!!

HALLELUJAH!!!!!!

xoxo

Me

Weekend Roundup...still of the night edition

Every night Mr Jamas and I tuck all our lil chickens away for the night...and then we nestle ourselves watching Lord of the Rings for MAYBE the 600th time...and then lately..I konk out...but Sunday night I was WIDE awake...I even heard Bear  (the dog) snoring..weird!  So I just got up and found myself walking througout the house peeking into each of the kids rooms..listening to them breath..and I was overwhelmed with gratitude and peace..to know how far we have come...how a few years things were so flipped upside down..and now I have this life that I am so happy and excited about.  And mostly that I have 3 wonderfully happy and healthy kids slleping in their beds...and one active lil bunny NOT SLEEPING in my tummy.

Blessed for another great weedkend with them!

Bella had ANOTHER Fan Dancer performance!

Mateo was excited to visit the kitty cats at the adoption center..look how happy he is..

so happy infact that we caught him....well...pooping his pants with excitement..I know..TMI..but I just LOVE the face he makes when he is pooping..and finishes of with a lil shimmy!

We are the proud owners of a rescued dog..he is half German Shepard and half golden retreiver..and Bella found the cups that would represent that..hehehe..cutie!

Mateo can't get enough of his new sandbox that Daddy built him....

o yeah..and he discovered the wii..BTW..those are his workout clothes...

Off to Centennial Farms...

 You know what i think of when I see this picture (besides that my face is growing as fast as my belly) that I CANNOT BELIEVE I AM MOMMYTO FOUR BAMBINOS!!!!!!

Johnny was pooped out

Scarey Bella peeling off her face mask after a mini spa date we had...

Another weeknd down...ready for the next!

xoxo

Me